Holy shit. Steven Page has been arrested on drug charges. Cocaine. How the mighty have fallen. It sucks when someone you admire is knocked so far off their pedestal. Yes, he's human, but I really had hope that the guys were above all that crap.

The best thing I've ever done in my life? Funny how I didn't even have to think twice about this one. Take care of my dad the last two years of his life, so he could pass away in his sleep at home. It got hard sometimes, both physically and emotionally, and even more so after he was gone, but....oh my Goddess, I would not have passed that up for anything in the world. To be there for my dad, to know that I did good. To know that he passed peacefully and where he wanted to be.

Random things that make me happy:
Finding out that the RPG site I play at is fairly Rainbow Friendly. I mean, yeah there are chars that are LGBT, but you never know how the authors behind them feel in real life. Yippee and hooray for open mindedness!

Went through with getting the upper endoscopy today. I had been contemplating canceling almost up to the last minute. Still, glad it is over, but not a happy camper. Stomach is sore and my throat hurts. Tried to smoke a cigarette and throat was not up to it. Maybe later. Right now, will just sip on warm tea and continue to relax for rest of day. Results should be back Monday or Tuesday. *shrugs* Already know it's an ulcer, just wanting to know know big and stuff so he can tell me what else to do. NOT giving up my cigarettes right now. He can remove my stomach before that.

Father's Day today, and of course something has happened that makes me miss Dad particularly much today.

The town I lived in for a few years in Iowa has flooded, quite badly. Whole area, actually. It's mind numbing to look at pictures of the streets I used to walk, places I used to visit, imagining the home I used to live in (which was right next to the river), halfway under water. I hope those that I have fond memories of are making it okay. But the tragedy there has brought something to light: Mom was checking out their web page, and saw that my ex stepfather was no longer their city coordinator. So she did I search, and found that he died of cancer on Feb. 5th of this year.

I don't know what to feel. I hated that man. He made mine and my younger brother's lives a living hell. The abuse. Gord, Dad said if he ever saw that man, he would kill him himself. I've worked so hard to just get over most of it, and now it comes flooding back. I may not believe in Hell, per se, but I do hope he is made to suffer for his actions. *imagines him caught in some sort of temporary limbo, with electricity arcing through his body* I know this isn't like me, but you have no idea what he put us through.

Just reminds me of how I always missed my Dad through those years, and now miss him again. Happy Father's Day, Dadders. Miss you. *sends a kiss and hug out into the air*

Dealing a bit with the recent decline, but hoping that perhaps it will subside after the 16th. Appreciate the caring, all, but you know me...this too shall pass.
I don't know if I want to celebrate my anniversary this year. At least, no longer want to go as crazy as previously thought. How does bowling sound? I could probably deal with that. Of course, I would want to do it over here in Kentucky, so I could actually SMOKE. *grumbles at Ohio*

Funny how much easier I am finding the interaction with faceless people online so much easier than RL right now...
( Boring RP Goodness )

Dear Stupid Snack Machine,

I gave you my money. You registered it. I asked for Cheetos. There were Cheetos in you. You stated "choose another option". I WANTED CHEETOS YOU BASTARD!

Next time, I will reach in and pull your wirey little guts out.

Sincerely,
Me

These baked Lays taste like puke. No lunch for me. *kicks desk*

-Free Comic Book Day!
-Everyone wanted me to do something last night! Ended up going with A&M to a Fairy Ball, where I was able to wear my wings, sparkle up, and spend some quality time with them. Plus got to see an old friend that I have missed greatly.
-Crappy service at Frisch's, but yummy food.
-slept like a log

All this equals one happy Jess. My friends are the best friends in the universe. You may argue...but you would be wrong.

REO Speedwagon is on Good Morning America! *sparks lighter and gives old skool fangirl squee* I just CAN'T fight this feeling anymore!

Things have slowed down...a bit. Everyone seems to be doing better that needs to be, and my life is continuing in a somewhat predictable pattern. Whatever that may mean.
Finished the teen reading challenge for the local library network, and the final count was 70 books read and over 18000 pages. My team won last year (even though I dropped out early when Dad passed), and I hope we do it again. I am finally able to read material not dripping with angst, and what do I find myself perusing? Fanfiction. Don't ask. *rolls eyes*
Now that outside life has calmed down, work life has picked up. I'm on two committees, plus have been asked to help do interviews with my supervisor for the new full-time clerk. I am very proud to be asked, but it does make me feel a bit like a chicken with its head cut off. Hopefully, we will get this new person hired before this second committee starts at the end of the month.
What else, what else? Um, I get to see Eddie Izzard live next week. I will not drool here. I will save all my drool until the show. *mops mouth* I have discovered that I love "Dropkick Murphy". I'm writing again.
I miss my friends. *HUGS EVERYONE*

This journal will be going on hiatus for awhile. I've just been too busy with other things in my life to keep up with everyone, much less update. I am fine, don't worry. However, there are others around me that I am watching crumble under the strain of their own problems. They also need me. Take care, and hope to see you later. *huggles everyone*

moar funny pictures

moar funny pictures

I do a lot more baking. Something about cold weather opens up the Inner Suzy Homemaker in me. I also find myself eating a lot more soups and warm foods than the rest of the year, and drinking hot teas and cocoa.

This is my first time doing this, though I have sent stuff in the past. I hope people liked it.
I've had an emotionally hard time this year, but SO many people have had bad times. I have a roof over my head, a full-time job, food in the fridge, and family that loves me. I am blessed.

1) This is the most important. PLEASE let your parents know how much you love them. Same with your kids. I love my father in March after a long battle with cancer, and it devastated me. He was 53. You never know when they will leave us. Also, if you know someone who has lost a parent this year, send them a card or call them. Holidays are hard. This one will be really rough on me, because Dad's birthday is two days before Christmas.
2) Give to charity. I don't care if you donate blankets to a local animal shelter, give time to a soup kitchen, knit mittens for a mitten tree. Do something and give back. Not everything requires money.
3) Bake cookies or something for your local library people. We need love too!
4) Make a decision to read more. It doesn't matter if it is the newspaper, graphic novels, whatever.
5) Do something nice for yourself. Just some YOU time. Destress during this busy season, take a deep breath, remember that time is too short to take it for granted.

Okay, I guess I will ask for a few things for me. :P

6) Something you made. It could be a picture you drew, a photo you took, a bracelet you beaded, hey-maybe you found a cool rock (okay, technically you didn't MAKE that, but you discovered it!).
7) cards or postcards, funny ones especially.
8) a mix CD of some of your favorite songs
9) something for my two kitty cats
10) look over the other wishes on holiday_wishes and grant some. You may have something you can do that can make someone's day!

For contact info or to let me know what you did, please email me at erewhon77@yahoo.com.

I know I owe everyone a big update, but have been so busy.
However...I am going to the doctor tomorrow morning at 10:40, and am very worried. Please send good vibes, light candles, and hope that it is nothing. It has the possibility to be Something, and as this is the Year of a Thousand Shitty Things, I would not be surprised.

Hmm...so how long was I gone this time?

My LJ expires tomorrow. I've thought about this a lot.
I will not be renewing it.
I just don't use LJ enough anymore. Plus, I think it is time to get on with my life.
Anyone who wishes to stay in touch with me can e-mail me at erewhon77@yahoo.com
If you don't like e-mail, we can exchange snail mail or phone numbers through e-mail and keep up that way.
I hope you all take care of yourselves, and love yourself.
I'm out of here.